"I love you!" "I love you too!"
Words spoken so often, that are supposed to have so much meaning. words that should be filled with the most cherished, special feeling in the world are flung around and abused. Almost anytime a person gets into a relationship with someone, they say "I love you" immediately. I don't believe in that.
I do believe that there are different kinds of love. There is the love that you feel for your parents (not Oedipus), the love you feel for your friedns, the love you feel for your cat, the love you feel for your sister...any number of kinds of love. However, they are not the one that is cherished...and abused.
The kind of love I am talking about is the love two people share when they realize that their hearts belong to each oter, and that nothing can seperate them. The kind of love that comes along perhaps more than once in a lifetime, but not the hundreds of times some make it seem.
Most people confuse love with a feeling of happiness, joy, lust, or passion. I, of course, have been guilty of this as well. It is not always easy to tell the difference, and one cannot give a list of symptoms like the balmy hands and stuttering, because the reactiosn could be different for each individual.
I believe, after much "research" in this subject, there are two kinds of love people can share in a relationship. These aren't felt in every relationship. Believe me...far from it. Although some people may think they are, they are not.
The first kind is false love, which is more of an intense liking. (Is that a real word, or another of my created ones?) Anyway...that kind of love may seem strong, but is not really love.
What seperates it from real love? Time. "but my boyfriend and I have been together for two whole years!" "My girlfriend and I have been seeing each other for five months...the longest I've been with anyone in my life!" yeah--whatever. That is not the time I'm talking about. I believe that you can only find this love lasts over all-time, which means you can never be sure. Life sucks, huh?
Anyway, now your going to ask about me...right? Well...if not, you should. My life may add some insight into yours. Or, it may not. You should try to learn nonetheless.
I have only been in love...true love...once. That is as far as I know, of course. We broke up in 1995...two years ago this past October. As a matter of fact, one year after we broke up, I wrote a poem about it. Want to read it??? Here it is: One Year Later.
I still feel for Garnet the way I always have. I am pretty sure I always will. I think this is true love.
False love? Three instances I think are the false love rather than the true kind. One was Wendy. There are a couple of others. I still care for them a lot...but realize it was not the intense love I once thought.
If you know a decent amount about me, or have read enough of my page, you will naturaly ask yourself, "What about Alexis?" Yeah...my current girlfriend. What do I think about her? Do I love her? I don't know. She means a lot to me, but there is no way to know.
Almost all of my ex-girlfriends have immediately said, "I love you." She didn't. That meant a lot to me. Yeah...because she DIDN'T SAY IT. I tell people I love them, but that is mainly as friends. Do I love her...in some way? Yeah...but I don't know WHAT way, so I don't want to hurt her by leading her. So, I haven't said anything about it yet. The first thing she will learn about it is when she reads this page. HI ALEXIS!
I believe there are other ways to express your feelings that aren't so generic and over-used. She has found two, and they mean as much if not more to me than "I love you." She tells me "I think you're Awesome" and once she said "You Complete Me," a line from Jerry MacGuire. They mean more to me.
I hope you all found some purpose in this next to a poor college student's ramblings. It has true meaning..I hope you got that.