Friday, September 27, 2002 :::
RESIGNATION
I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult. I have decided I would like to accept the
responsibilities of an 8 year-old again.
I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.
I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make a sidewalk with rocks.
I want to think M&Ms are better than money because you can eat them.
I want to lie under a big oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summer's day.
I want to return to a time when life was simple, when all you knew were colors, multiplication
tables, and nursery rhymes, but that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know
and you didn't care.
All you knew was to be happy because you were blissfully
unaware of all the things that should make you worried or upset.
I want to think the world is fair.
That everyone is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible.
I want to be oblivious to the complexities of life and be overly excited by the little things
again.
I want to live simple again.
I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news,
how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip,
illness, and loss of loved ones. I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth,
justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind, and making angels in the snow.
So . . .here's my checkbook and my car keys, my credit card bills and my 401K
statements. I am officially resigning from adulthood. And if you want to
discuss this further, you'll have to catch me first, because...
Tag!
You're it.
::: posted by Bobby |
ITS FRIIIIIDAAAAYYYYYY! Thought this week would never end ;) Unfortunately its raining outside, as it has been for days now. Flood watch for the entire area in which I live. Hopefully no one will be adversely affected by it, I've seen too much of that these last few years (in terms of flooding) and I'd hate to see the cycle begin all over again. Some of these poor folks aren't even recovered from the last bout of flooding :(
I'm going to clean my house from top to bottom this evening, I'm talking deep cleaning my floors, doing my windows, the whole nine yards.... and then some. Hopefully my border will be in so that I can complete my living room's transformation to better match my personality... Maybe I'll post pics when I'm all finished (you know, before and after). I'll most likely head up to the local Linens and Things and buy some decorative "things". Home decor is definitely not my strongest skill I can assure you, but I'm managing.
I think.
::: posted by Bobby |
Thursday, September 26, 2002 :::
I crave a life less ordinary, but at every turn, ordinary is there to greet me with open arms. I have no escape, no mythical fortress of solitude in which to cocoon myself. Yes, I'm frustrated, although not to the point I am angry. I'd liken it more to a simple case of annoyance... but of course that can change on a moment's notice. I try to ascertain the meaning of this rollercoaster we call life. At the very heart of it all, we all do virtually the same sorts of things. Get up, go to our place of employment/recreation/whatever and do our thing, grab some lunch... continue till the end of the day, grab some dinner, then enjoy the evening and eventually get some rest. Rinse, lather, repeat. Neverending cycle. I blame myself to some degree having chosen a profession that doesn't provide much in the way of mobility. Sure, I attend the occasional "serminar" (98% of all seminars are trying to sell you on something), which gets me out of the office, but other than that, I trudge away behind the keyboard or at the console making my little chunk of the net safe and secure and putting out the fires that occasionally appear. I should have chosen something a little more exciting, like a river guide... or a park ranger in Kenya... perhaps even an archaeologist working at ground zero of Akrotiri.
But I didn't.
I chose to forge myself a career in Information Technology... a once proud and lauded field of endeavor, now inundated with such "advancements" as instant messenging, script kiddie hackers, a new virus each and every minute of the day, and of course, the ever present availability of pornography. Most of the time I'm happy with what I do, but more often than not I find myself wishing that I had chosen a different career. I wonder how my life would be had I taken a different path. I dream of coming to a complete stop, choosing a new direction, and re-inventing myself. Sad thing is, I probably never will. My life is comfortable (albeit far from perfect, I can assure you). Because of this simple fact, I find it increasingly difficult to simply stop what I'm doing, risk it all, and head down another road. Perhaps one day I'll muster the courage to undertake such an endeavor... but for now, I have to keep trudging along... doing what I can to have some semblance of excitement in my life. Sounds like fun eh?
::: posted by Bobby |
Wednesday, September 25, 2002 :::
Quote of the Day!
"Backups are for wimps. Real men upload their data via FTP and have everyone else mirror it." --Linus Torvalds, the father of Linux
::: posted by Bobby |
Tuesday, September 24, 2002 :::
Without question I have opinions on many topics that are hotly debated on many of my fellow bloggmates. It would be ridiculously easy to post my feelings on everything from our impending conflict with Saddam "Brother Can You Spare a Brain?" Hussein and his terrible Republican Guard (a dictator choosing to use the word "republican" when referring to his
At this time, I look at my site as a tool in which to allow myself to release frustrations, offer some kind of insight into the world in which I live, and maybe... just maybe, I'll be able to make some sense of it all. Time will tell...
::: posted by Bobby |
Monday, September 23, 2002 :::
Going to really try and make a solid effort to make the most of this week, and pretty much let things happen and try to not get so worked up over things I can't control. I have the unenviable task of working with an software engineer from France who's coming in to install his company's financial software on a couple of our systems here. He speaks with broken English so my task is a daunting one. Hopefully things will go smoothly, but one can never tell in the helter-skelter world that is IT.
On other fronts... didn't get to ride my motorcycle AT ALL this weekend, since we had overcast weather and intermittent rain the entire weekend. I'll have to place my order for my Fieldsheer leather jacket just so I can get in perhaps another month or two of riding. I sort of like cooler weather to ride in, considering the days are warm and the evenings are cooler... more on that later.
My Cowboys lost. Again. Jerry Jones is the Devil. >(
::: posted by Bobby |
Friday, September 20, 2002 :::
Sounds like fun eh? And note, not a single date for the weekend :) I'm sorta getting the hang of this being single thing :)
::: posted by Bobby |
Just for fun... see how you rate ;)
FYI, I scored 27... and know that I was completely freaked out when I read my personality profile. Can you say hitting the nail on the head?
I knew you could :)
Step One:
Write down the letters you answer for each question.
[1]. When you get up in the morning, what do you usually have for breakfast:
A. Eggs and toast
B. Cereal
C. Pop Tart
D. Nothing
[2]. If you could have anything you desired, what would you have for breakfast?
A. Eggs and toast
B. Something else
C. Pop Tart
D. Cake
[3]. It's lunch time. You:
A. Skip a meal because you are too busy or worried about your weight.
B. Get what you have spent all morning thinking about.
C. Eat the food you brought with you.
D. Find out what your friends are having and tag along.
[4]. A friend offers you some of his/her food. You:
A. Take a bite because you are starving
B. Take a bite to be polite
C. Refuse because you are watching your weight
D. Take 2 bites instead of just 1
[5]. Your future boyfriend/girlfriend offers you something to eat. It is:
A. A cookie
B. An apple
C. A slice of pizza
D. A carrot
[6]. Your dog is begging you for a treat. You give him:
A. A dog biscuit
B. Some cake
C. Nothing, but you pet him
D. Nothing and you push him away. Treats are bad for him.
[7]. In a dream, you are in the world's best restaurant. You order:
A. Everything on the menu. It's a dream, right?
B. A salad. A big one with everything in it.
C. Steak.
D. A rich dessert.
[8]. You are stranded alone on a tropical island. What are the foods you have to have with you?
A. Fruits and vegetables
B. Meat and potatoes
C. Ice cream, chocolate, and cake
D. Chinese food
[9]. You are an infant and your mother is feeding you:
A. Baby Cereal or formula
B. Broccoli
C. A cookie
D. Nothing, she is doing something else
[10]. You are 6 years old. Your dad is feeding you:
A. Pizza
B. Spaghetti-Os
C. Bubble gum
D. Carrots
Step Two:
Now use this key to sum your score
1. A. = 3 B. = 1 C. = 6 D. = 2
2. A. = 2 B. = 1 C. = 3 D. = 4
3. A. = 2 B. = 1 C. = 3 D. = 4
4. A. = 3 B. = 1 C. = 2 D. = 6
5. A. = 1 B. = 2 C. = 5 D. = 3
6. A. = 3 B. = 1 C. = 4 D. = 2
7. A. = 2 B. = 1 C. = 3 D. = 4
8. A. = 4 B. = 3 C. = 2 D. = 5
9. A. = 6 B. = 4 C. = 8 D. = 2
10. A. = 7 B. = 5 C. = 1 D. = 3
Now add up your scores and find your personality below...
Your score: [12-20]:
You tend to be a shy person. You may feel uncomfortable with a lot of other people. You some times think that you were given a body that does not fit your mind, and perhaps you were born in the wrong year. You are much smarter than most people think you are and you donot let other people know about it. You have a giant heart that gets crushed all the time. You tend to have an artistic flair. Music you like: songs about love,lost love, and heartbreak. Your favorite movie: Titanic. There aredays when you would rather stay home and enjoy time to yourself than to go out and deal with annoying people. Cupid has toyed with you. Someone you loved has hurt you. Your parents fought when you were small. You have thought about getting a tattoo.
[21-30]:
You made your way in this world in spite of all the obstacles you have faced. You have seen a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships. Love for you can be as intense as the fire on the face of the sun. You are either very calm on the inside when there is a lot of insanity around you or you shut people up and take charge. You can go to a movie by yourself without the need for someone to go with you. You are as comfortable alone as you are with others. You are angry at your parents and you can't change them. You are a great lover when you find that rare mate who is your equal, but otherwise your relationships have been short or frustrating. You have stayed too long with a partner you did not like. Life is a roller coaster, and you are finding ways to make the good times better. You LOVE sports.
[31-42]:
You generally are a calm person. You get excited when your favorite band is in town, when you are going on a date with your partner, and when you and your friends are dancing. For you, your friendsmean everything to you. You hate it when the summer is over. You like art,and some poetry. You can throw a party, or help a friend put one together. You usually have no trouble finding dates, but you occasionally hit a dry spell. You like the outdoors, usually,and rainy weather doesn't bother you. You sometimes get jealous of people who are smarter or better looking than you, but you wouldn'thold it against them if you got to know them. You are on good terms with your parents, even though they piss you off once in a while. You saw your parents kissing. People tend to think you are reliable and trustworthy. You like animals.
[43-53]:
Sometimes there just isn't enough time in a day for you to do everything you would like to do. If there isn't anything fun going on at the moment,then you know how to get things rolling. You tend to be the kind of person people look up to, and you usually have the ability to excel at most things you try. You usually don't care that people think about you, and you have no problem kissing your mate in public. Sex for you is a passionate art, and you never have a problem in bed,except for being a little too wild for your partner. You tend to have an energy levelthat is one step above the others, but you can play it cool if you want to.You prefer to play sports than to watch. People have been jealous ofyou, but its unlikely you noticed. Your parents are active people, and may not have given you as much time as you wanted. You have a tattoo, play in a band, have blond hair, or are on a sports team. People copy you. Sometimes you are truly miserable, but not for long.
::: posted by Bobby |
Thursday, September 19, 2002 :::
In my head I have dreams
I have visions of many things
Questions, longings in my mind
Pictures fill my head
I feel so trapped instead but
Trapped doesn't seem so bad
'Cause you are here
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me
In my heart I had hope
Built on dreams I'll never know
Answers to love left behind
Visions filled my head
I feel so trapped instead but
Trapped doesn't seem so bad
'Cause you were near
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
And I can try to justify
But I still need you here with me
I can't do anything without you
You give me strength
To do anything
I can't be everything I try to
You saved me from the
Everything I couldn't be
It doesn't mean anything
Without you here with me
'Cause after all is said and done
I still need you here with me
Need you here with me
I need you here with me...
::: posted by Bobby |
Wednesday, September 18, 2002 :::
Dating.
This is my second go'round on the dating scene. The first time around was much simpler, I was young, free, and didn't have a care in the world. I didn't think about the future much, and as such didn't view each new person I went out with as possibly being "The One". Back then (mind you that means 8 years ago or thereabouts!), I was more or less just having a good time and enjoying the company of the girl I was with at the time. No pressure, no preconceived notions, no excess emotional baggage to contend with. But that was then....
Dating now is a completely different beast. I've been divorced, and as much as I try to deny it, I carry a small amount of the dreaded emotional baggage. I know once you've gone down the road of matrimony, there undoubtedbly exists some level of resentment... distrust... apprehension... fear... exasperation... but thankfully, for the most part, such feelings are tempered with much "happier" feelings. When I look at dating now I see adventure... excitment... opportunity. I see the chance, albeit a small one, to find that certain someone without whom I simply cannot breathe. Sure, sometimes I feel down and out and feel I'll never find her. Sometimes I get tired of the games that people play (and yes, I've played them too... a necessary evil sometimes). But for the most part, I try to stay positive and not allow myself to become so completely jaded that I withdraw from societal interactions, grow my hair long and become a hermit in the hills of Wild Wonderful West Virginia :)
Thankfully I have women in my life who almost daily exhibit the kind of things that are beautiful and wonderful about the female of our species. My sister Kathy is a strong person, capable of handling virtually any situation. She's a female version of me :) My mom is quite honestly the most compassionate person I have ever met. Even when someone treats her terribly, she remains as friendly as ever, and doesn't bear any ill-will towards them. My buddy Kaeli makes me laugh, gives me a "woman's" point of view on darn near any situation, and pretty much restores my faith that not every woman is merely an evil creature hiding just below the surface, waiting to make my life a misery :)
I'm not sure where my dating experiences will take me, but I am certain of one thing. It'll be one interesting ride....
::: posted by Bobby |
Monday, September 16, 2002 :::
The weather has been horrible these last few days, I haven't gotten to ride my motorcycle for at least a week now, and its getting annoying. I'll most likely order some new parts this week and hope this distraction is enough to make me overlook the fact that I haven't been able to ride :( Time will tell...
Pretty soon I'm going to start waxing all philosophical on life, love, and any number of topics. Just not today :) C'mon, its Monday after all!
**Edit**
Oh yeah, and my beloved Cowboys beat Tennessee 21-13! Now if Emmitt could only go on a tear the next 4 games, average over 110 yards per, and score a couple of TDs and help the team go undeafeated the rest of the season... a guy can dream can't he?
::: posted by Bobby |
Thursday, September 12, 2002 :::
Morons. Pfft.
Smile. God loves you :)
::: posted by Bobby |
Wednesday, September 11, 2002 :::
Never forget.
::: posted by Bobby |
Tuesday, September 10, 2002 :::
"If there were ever a time to dare,
to make a difference,
to embark on something worth doing,
it is now.
Not for any grand cause, necessarily-
but for something that tugs at your heart,
something that's your aspiration,
something that's your dream.
You owe it to yourself
to make your days here count.
Have fun.
Dig Deep.
Stretch.
Dream big."
Hear hear.
::: posted by Bobby |
Sunday, September 08, 2002 :::
::: posted by Bobby |
Hopefully in the next couple of days I'll add some color to the site. I know it could really use some, but I really like white. Too much motorcycling lately I guess! Maybe I'll look into adding a comments feature as well, I don't think too many people read this but that could always change...
::: posted by Bobby |
Friday, September 06, 2002 :::
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